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Guys, this is really awkward for me to write down and I'm showing a vulnerable side of me that I usually don't show people, but just bear with me.
I need help. Serious, mental help. I've been having legitimate thoughts of murder, I even pulled a knife once, but I put it back just out of reasoning with myself. I'm not sure if the same will happen next time( I've slowly been losing control over my anger and I'm lashing out a lot more than usual, and prayer isn't working anymore), so I want some help and some tips on how to control it. Now, I will say that there's been hallucinations that accompany these thoughts, so I'm wondering if it's a disorder. I could go to my therapist, WHEN MY MOTHER FUCKING TAKES THE TIME OUT OF HER LIFE TO FIND ME ONE.
Sometimes I wonder if she even cares. She probably doesn't even remember me asking, honestly. I asked her what, four/five months ago? At least my step-mother and father acknowledge the fact that I need help.
You know what, fuck that. I'm gonna deal with it my way- with your guys' help, seeing as you are the ones who have cared so far. I'm relying on you guys, so don't let me down...
I'm desperate...
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Okay, so I think I'm gonna change my account name. Just wanted to let you guys know so you won't be confused!
so, I guess I'm changing it to Tokerei. Have a nice day/night, fellow deviants!
edit: well, I will once I figure out how to.
re-edit: well shite, I guess I need a core membership to do that... Whelp, time to gather up money! XD
i dunno what to call this.
Heeeey, I'm bored an I want to know something.
Should I do an "in a nutshell" thing for my OCs, or a pin up? (That's as close as I'm getting to NSFW) I just want to try something new.
OMFG THIS SONG WILL BE THE END OF ME XD
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uxLz5aWl4Mg
I FOCKIN' LOVE IT!!!
"wasn't my idea cause IM NOT GAY" XD
Hey, I need help with something.
Does anyone know anything about the the whole "DiFi request" thing? DA won't let me upload anymore, and I need help figuring out how the fix the "DiFi request failed" thing.
edit: it's partially fixed, but there's still a few "bugs". At least I can upload art.
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It's small, but try talking to your mother, don't say 'Oh i've been thinking of murder' start it small, just like 'I've been feeling quite down' or even just anything else, like asking if you can start a new hobby, that's what i did when my mother passed away, i started archery, it really helped. (Part of the county team now ;3) so try asking to start something new, it's a great way to keep your mind of things. Just keep active, when you stop, you think, and thinking can lead to many negative thoughts and doubts. Keep doing art, even. Start a new project, if you get a steam account, i can send you small challenges to do, or just to talk :3